The Chronicles of Narnia: The Voyage of the Dawn Treader - The Paintings

Jason Gray - Remind Me Who I Am

SHAME-LIES-TRUTH

"LIES"-EMOTIONS ARE UNNECESSARY, BOTHERSOME AND EMBARRASSING.
EMOTIONS ARE BAD AND DANGEROUS, SO I AM SAFE WHEN I AVOID THEM.
WHEN I FELT SAD AS A CHILD, NO ONE WAS THERE FOR ME. I COULDN'T STAND TO FEEL THAT DESPAIR AND LONELINESS AGAIN. UNLESS I EXPLODE WITH ANGER, PEOPLE WILL WALK ALL OVER ME.
"TRUTH"-EMOTIONS ARE A GIFT FROM GOD AND THEY ARE, INTEGRAL PART OF MY HUMAN NATURE WHICH REFLECTS HIS IMAGE. EMOTIONS ARE NEITHER GOOD OR BAD. EMOTIONS CAN BE EXPRESSED APPROPRIATELY, AND I CAN LEARN TO DO THAT. I AM LESS OF WHAT GOD CREATED ME TO BE WHEN I AVOID FEELING EMOTIONS.
WHEN I AM ABLE TO FEEL MY EMOTIONS, I WILL BECOME MORE AUTHENTIC AND ALIVE.

IT IS APPROPRIATE FOR CHILDREN TO FEEL CONFUSED, AFRAID, SAD AND/
OR ANGRY WHEN THEIR PARENTS NEGLECT AND/OR ABUSE THEM. THOSE FEELINGS DO NOT GO AWAY JUST BECAUSE I HAD TO LEARN TO DEADEN, AND DISOWN THEM. THEY ARE STILL INSIDE, AND THEY ARE EFFECTING
MY LIFE TODAY. ITS BEST TO FACE AND FEEL THEM HONESTLY

IT IS APPROPRIATE TO FEEL ANGER MISLEADING AND/OR ABUSING CHILDREN ANGERS GOD. I CAN LEARN TO EXPRESS ANGER APPROPRIATELY AND WITHOUT SINNING. I CAN LEARN APPROPRIATE, BOUNDARY-SETTING TECHNIQUES SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO HIDE BEHIND MY SHIELD OF ANGER.

TIME OUT

AS I HAVE LOOKED BACK ON MY CHILDHOOD, I MUST REMEMBER TO PRAY FOR WISDOM TO SEE HIDDEN STUFF FROM MY CHILDHOOD THAT I HAVE NOT SEEN.

THE MORE DYSFUNCTIONAL MY FAMILY IS. THE MORE DIFFICULT IT WILL BE FOR ME TO REMEMBER THE WHOLE PICTURE. I REMEMBER ALWAYS BEING TOLD THAT "GOOD" CHILDREN ONLY REMEMBER THE HAPPY TIME."

DENIAL IS WHAT FAMILY MEMBERS WANTED , MOVE ON DON'T DEAL WITH YOUR CHILDHOOD IT DOES NOT MATTER, FIRST OF ALL DENIAL KEEPS ME STUCK IN MY CHILDHOOD.

VERBAL ABUSE HAS A GREAT AFFECT ON ANYONE ON THE RECEIVING END OF IT. PHYSICAL ABUSE . A CHILD RECEIVES ALL PARENTAL ACTIONS AND ATTITUDES AS A MESSAGES ABOUT THE CHILD'S IDENTITY, THE MESSAGE CONVEYS: "YOU ARE A WORTHLESS CHILD WHO DESERVES THIS TREATMENT BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT VALUABLE. AS A RESULT CHILDREN CAN CARRY DYSFUNCTIONAL , CODEPENDENT SCARS INTO THEIR ADULT LIVES THAT NEED TO BE DEALT WITH.

The Passion of the Christ - Crucifixion

LOOKING BACK N MOVING FOWARD

FOR ME TO DEAL WITH MY CHILDHOOD IS TO UNDERSTANDING MY "CHILDHOOD."

UNDERSTANDING THE ENVIRONMENT AND HOW IT HAS INFLUENCES ME TODAY AS I SEE IT THROUGH MY ADULT EYES, BUT SEEING IT THROUGH THE EYES OF A CHILD,

A FRIGHTENED CHILD, CONFUSED AND MAYBE ABUSED , (VERBAL) WHATEVER THE CASE IS. BECOMING A CHILD THAT GROWS UP WITH DISTORTED THINKING, DISTORTED VIEW OF REALITY. ONE NEEDS WISDOM TO SEE THE TRUE PERSPECTIVE ON THE PAST AND PRESENT SO THAT I CAN CHANGE MY FUTURE, GET THE DISTORTED THINKING OUT OF MY HEAD. CHANGE THE WAY I THINK. IT'S HARD AT TIMES TO RECOGNIZE THOSE THINGS FROM CHILDHOOD THAT CAN INTERFERE WITH THE PROCESS OF "REBUILDING," WHICH BRINGS CHANGE, GETTING UNSTUCK AND MOVING FORWARD FROM CHILDHOOD. OUR CHILDHOOD PAST CAN INFLUENCE THE PRESENT IF NOT DEALT WITH. AS A CHILD IN A DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY, I HAD NO WAY OF KNOWING THE CHAOS GOING ON AROUND ME. SO HOW COULD I HAVE KNOWN THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN WHAT IS FUNCTIONAL AND DYSFUNCTIONAL! FAMILIES THAT ARE FUNCTIONAL ARE NOT PROBLEM FREE , BUT THEY HANDLE THE PROBLEMS AS THEY COME, THEY DEAL WITH "SOLVING THEIR PROBLEMS. "